Why?

Why aren't I in love? Why don't I unearth my heart? Why don't I climb in of me? Why don't I drink? Why don't I smoke? Why don't I sing and dance? Why don't i lose my shadow? Why do I look at the sky? Why don't I look at the cloud; the wind that moves it? Why don't I punch? Why don't I spray? Why don't i wait and write? Why don't I wake up? Why don't I wake up? Why don't I wake up? Why don't I laugh loud? Why don't I travel inside? Why don't I love? Why don't I shoot? Why don't I be human? Why aren't I in love?
Smokes rises, outside in flooding thoughts, full of scars and wounds. Imaginations stringed too close, stars that look at us have died long back. I am still here, asking why aren't I in love?
I was,
I am,
I will always be.

Into this...

Into this, the beauty held itself,
The dance in her breast spread in all spaces,
Life came into this, corners curled, kneaded gently, hearts became the hands.
So much so for what was fear, she walked through it, into this.
Haven't we heard this before, the feet can dance, the wings can fly, songs written from dreams and pains, life came into this.
I think of you, of strength, of your pieces that made the hands pump and eyes look up.
Into this.the rains will come, into this the flames will fan the passion, into this...

What I want about me?

I don't know.
Why we need to know our self,  need people, relationships,  want to be careful, be safe? We experience fear, take care of family, never want to apologize. 
We want to trust. Deal with fakes, and find true love, nobility. 
Imagine the emotions raging through us, within us, the entire range, depending on the premise our mind functions on, surviving with or without guilt through our actions.
Could one defend greed? Yes. 
Could one base its philosophy on greed? Yes.
So on and so forth with all emotions, can be defended, philosophized and argued upon. 
Feeling safe, to be trusted, to trust, are our basic urges. 
How safe do you feel and with whom?
How trusted do you feel and with whom?
Who would you trust entirely?
Could I close my eyes, see what face hits my perception the very second my eyes close, whose name do I hear first? 
Then what do I do?
I don't know.