It always took a kiss to know that it would be the only one that I would live for, the one that would change the materiality of my life, it would be the truth, it would be selfish, I would be free. The free is to not to feel anything other than the feel of being alive. 

Except life what exists is more than it is to feel alive. I felt, it was always there to be felt.

The Cold in me is the Life that throbs.